Christmas comes but once a year.
Oddly enough that seems pretty frequent.
Every year I go through the same stages of Christmas Gift Anxiety. First, I don’t think about gifts until someone I know says they’ve almost finished their shopping. Then I think “holy crap, if they’ve just finished and I didn’t think about it until this moment, I’m way behind!”
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So if stage 1 is Oblivious, stage 2 is Stress. At this point I consider all of the people I want to bless and weigh that against all of the money I don’t have. This leads to stage 3, Disappointment. As a reaction to the disappointment I tell myself “it doesn’t matter. Why do we do this to ourselves every year? Everyone else knows how broke I am and will totally understand if I don’t get them anything.” I’m not sure what to call that stage… Denial?
But I cannot really settle well with denial, so I start to consider what I can do that will not cost very much money. I have some good ideas. Maybe that is stage 5, Good Ideas. Unfortunately my ability to follow through with these ideas in the time that is left once I have them is… stage 6, Failure.
I know that sounds pretty harsh, but it’s how I feel in the moment when this stage strikes.
Then, stage 7, I Rally. In this stage I get real practical, make a few things, buy a few things and then land on the final stage. Acceptance.
I think there are a few people in the world who are really good and happy with the Christmas present situation but many people I know go through similar stages as myself. I think? Is it just me?
Part of me wants to just get better at this and part of me wants to find a way to make things different for all of us.