After a day of busyness and celebration I feel reflective and, out of step with all of the sweetness and joy, I feel a bit sad.
No expectations were disappointed. In fact, I was surprised several times today by gifts, kindness, phone calls, attention. At the dinner table
no images were foundtonight there was a distinct family feeling. I asked everyone who knew birthday songs in other languages to sing them. We got Norwegian, Russian, Dutch, Thai, an African language… and… I feel like I’m missing one. I wish I could have recorded this to share with you.
There was a birthday cake, cinnamon rolls, chips… and then at dinner a dear friend, Susie brought me these marshmallow filled brownies!! I love marshmallows!
We went to Starbucks after dinner clean up was over and people bought me coffee, a mug, a gift card…
I think lavished upon is a good way to describe how I felt many times today.
I am deeply grateful. And somehow still sad. Maybe it’s just a matter of being tired.
no images were foundMaybe being loved on and made to feel special leads to some other part of me that probably needs therapy. Maybe I am thinking about how there is such a short time left in this school and then I will say goodbye to some incredible people. I will then go home, spend time with those amazing people and have to say goodbye again.
Rapid fire living.
I think what I loved so much about dinner tonight was that I was really present with these dear people, enjoying them and feeling no angst or worry about my place. Unselfconscious enjoyment. It is rare and I was not ready to move away from that moment.
We have each other briefly. This is something I often have a hard time accepting.
I know, right? Poor Peggy :).
Thank you, friends for today.